I'm a bad mommy....

Bad Mommy!
Bad Mommy!

Tak tahu macam mana nak mula kan...
Aku rasa aku ibu yang teruk.
Dah dua malam aku jentik pipi Riana, my dear little girl.
Dah tiga malam dia terjaga dari tidur dan mahu di pegang...sampai sejam kemudian baru tidur semula.
Dan hari ni aku mula rasa seram sejuk. itu tak mengapa, I can handle myself.

But the thing is, how can I loose my patience with Riana?
She's too small to understand anything.
Yet I scold her. Bad mommy! Bad mommy!

Aku sedar aku a bit laid back with Riana.
Maybe because aku rasa aku berpengalaman so aku sedikit relax dalam menangani Riana.
Dan itu membuatkan aku rasa bersalah.
Was that mean I love her less?
Does she knows it?
sobb....sobbb...sobbb...

Dear Riana my baby girl,
Mommy love you so much darling!
Remember the day you choked and I thought I'm gonna loose you?
It frightened me to death!
I LOVE YOU...I LOVE YOU...I LOVE YOU...